40 Today

Today I am 40. It is funny... it has been just a fantastic birthday. I have really enjoyed every minute of it. I thought 40 would feel more... momentous... but actually it was such a peaceful birthday. I think 40 is just right. I am comfortable in my life, personally and professionally. I know our referral for Madeline is only a few more weeks away. James and Riley are happy, healthy and thriving. Life is very good at 40.

Someone asked me if I was upset with turning 40. I thought that was strange. I don't remember ever feeling like I wanted to be a different age than I am. I would not go back to 30 or 20 again. To have learned the lessons I have.... to have grown in my life and love.... nothing compares to the present.

I think maybe I am just at peace today with being me. Sure, there are 101 things I could rattle off that I would change, but they really aren't of any importance. They are all very superficial.

I am very happy today. I feel very spoiled. My guys did everything right.... a new watch, a Babies R Us gift card, birthday cards, a fabulous dinner, shopping and singing then cake. It was just the way I would want my birthday to be. I was surrounded by my guys, all three of them. We laughed together. We played together. We joked around together. We were a family.

I like 40.

** There are no guarantees I won't have a meltdown in the future, but we can blame that on paper pregnancy hormones and being peri-menopausal. :-)