Anticipation.....

I can't wait to see who is included in this next batch of referrals. It is getting closer!!


This morning when Riley woke up... the very first thing he said was.... "I want Maddie." He was half asleep, eyes barely open and he was thinking about his sister. He talks about her all the time lately.

Yesterday he said, Riley from China... yes, Mama... no, Dada... no, James... no, Maddie.... yes, Riley.. yes!! He was just kind of listing whether we were each from China. It melted my heart!! He is really a sweet little boy.

James is equally excited. His only request is that this time he wants a baby that is "holdable". I guess a strong willed two and a half year old brother when he came home wasn't quite holdable enough!!

Jerry is thinking that being referred another two year old would not be a bad thing at all. He said Riley was the perfect age... walking right out of the box. Right now the thought of carrying a little one around isn't as desireable as a two year old... I think his opinion would change QUICKLY if he had to chase a 4 year old and a 2 year old around. Having one a little less mobile would probably become quite desireable, very quickly.

Me... I am just ready. Sometimes I just feel her in my heart... so close... so needing me. Sometimes I miss her. It seems odd to think that I miss someone I haven't met... but somewhere deep down inside I know she is waiting. I miss her. I am ready to bring my daughter home... I don't care if she is holdable, walking ... just that she is home, in my arms feeling very loved and secure.